I’m back! Yes after a long long absent I’m back. In this few months many things happened and I have neglected this site. I won’t go into the details but what I can add on is my visit to Bangkok in August to help out in a charity. My first night I met up with Chris at Silom for a night out to our old joints. It was definitely good to meet up with long lost mamasans. All of them remember the both of us. It has been a good 2 and half years since I was in any of the gay bars. One of the old mamasan has even turned into a woman! He was a handsome man when I first met him. I didn’t have the heart to tell him he looked better as a man than a woman. Of course Chris got hold of my old favourite guy who was patiently waiting for me at The Boys.

The Boys is something new to me. Located under Dream Boy it has a large stage and they share the same dancers with Dream Boy. I was having a nice time talking and catching up when a mamasan from Jupiter came over. He pestered Chris to go over to Jupiter and he agreed so we left shortly after. I was so happy meeting up with old friends I didn’t check out the guys at The Boys!

At Jupiter I felt so cheated. I didn’t like the mamasan there as I felt he was too pushy. First for pestering us to go over when it was near closing time when there are no more shows. Second, he kept asking us to buy drinks for guys that he kept pulling to our table. Thirdly for asking me to take a friend of my favourite out for dinner! This means having to fork out the bar fine and giving him some money for the company. I was told that the guys at Jupiter are better as they are the best but which bar won’t claimed they are the best. I saw a few familiar faces too, guys that used to work at Dream Boy.

I left and ended up eating at a Cafe at Silom with my favourite and his friend. Chris left me the minute he got 2 guys! Here’s a photo of me and the boys taken outside Jupiter.

Yesterday Daniel my former housemate who is now working in Germany drop by Singapore for a short visit on his way back to Philipines for his annual holidays. He stayed with us as we have a spare room. Everything for him is still very familiar as we kept his old bed and cupboard though we moved after he left for Germany.

I swear that everyone who has seen Daniel insists that he is gay. So much so I started asking my gay friends such as Chris and Uncle if their gaydar tells them that he is one of them. Uncle gave a non-commital answer but Daniel really got on well with Uncle and his partner, Jimmy. All my 8 years of knowing Daniel he had no girlfriends or boyfriends. Karen and I suspects that he is a closet gay, maybe suppressing his feelings as Daniel is a deeply religious Catholic. I for one believed that he is not gay as he just didn’t lead the normal gay lifestyle but at times I do have my doubts. He’s still a virgin by the way.

A few clues that we got that he may be a closet gay is when Karen’s former housemate told Karen that he accidentally read Daniel emails to his girlfriend which had some inclination that he has feelings for men. Another is when he confessed to Karen that he stared at a former colleague the whole night while they shared a room in Bali.

When Daniel broke the news to us that he’s considering taking up a position in Germany, we were hoping that he will come out of his closet in Germany where people are more tolerant to gays. Our thoughts were that by being in a foreign country where no ones knows him, he is free to reveal his true self. It has been 10 months since he’s been there and I doubt very much that he has come out! But seeing him again yesterday make me realised that I missed him very much. I missed the times where we would just share a whole chunk of pork knuckles for dinner, watch horror movie and scream together. It was just good to see him again.

Tomorrow I’m leaving for Bangkok together with my whole family to spend Chinese New Year. Bangkok is now my second hometown as I ended up marrying a thai national whom I met in S’pore.

I’m looking forward to showing my family around… decent places of course. Gone are the days when Chris and I will patronize the streets of Surawong going from one gay bar to another. You name it, from Classic Boys Club, Dream Boy, Fresh Boys, Jupiter to Future Boys, we have been to them all.

You may think that I’m into the boys as well otherwise why would I go to a gay bar. Simply because I didn’t care back then what I did to my life whether it was heavy drinking or smoking. I was recovering from a broken heart, was stuck working at a horrible company… life had no meaning back then. Going to Bangkok with Chris was one way I escape the loneliness.

Life is more meaningful and stable for me now. I’ve a good career and a job that I like, a good husband as well as Larry, regardless whether he’s gay looking or not. These matters to me most and I’m happy.